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i cannot finish this damn paper. i'm feeling bad about next semester.… 
7th-Dec-2007 01:46 am
i cannot finish this damn paper.
i'm feeling bad about next semester.
with carolyn and jill leaving to go to florence and LA... sure i left last year, but at least they still had each other and merce, she might not come back after all.
i have a feeling that next semester will be very lonely and sad without my best friends around.
i've learned that those girls are my rock, they understand me, we have our laughs and they know about the things i was afraid to tell others.
sure, morgan and even patty will be around, but things are different with them, they don't go to simmons, they don't understand.
that place has a mind of its own, i can't even begin to comprehend it.
so i guess, all is left up in the air, i'm just feeling sad right now because i'm realizing a lot of things.
i wish some things were very different, but they obviously aren't
fuck, i only use this thing to let out my frustrations since there are times when i can't even begin to understand my own thoughts, reactions and emotions.
i'm fucked up.
but i already knew that.
yet, at the end of the day, i learn to love myself even more and more, because there's always room for improvement and i just need a win over here.
more happiness.

pero ya dejate de jugar conmigo asi...
7th-Dec-2007 05:27 pm (UTC)
i feel you. two of my best friends were gone this semester, and it was kinda lonely, but the friend i had left and i made due. and then, try adding a devastating breakup to that during finals week. yikes.
but if i can make it through, you can too. keep super busy, etc. your attitude seems far more positive than mine though, i can tell you that.
you'll be fine.
8th-Dec-2007 06:00 pm (UTC)
where's mercedes going? if you're ever lonely, i'll most likely be online so you can talk to me. hahaha. my working life has taken over most of my fun :)
8th-Dec-2007 09:27 pm (UTC)
hahaha, i'm always online.
anyway, she's thinking of going to sydney, australia next semester.
in other words, she's fucking crazy.
i'm so happy you and pheeel are coming to miami :)
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